Help Baby Girls Are Everywhere

So it was kind of a big stretch for me to go to a baby girl shower and a gender reveal party which revealed another baby girl is on her way. My husbands brother and wife are expecting a baby girl in January. I kept with my mantra (God's timing is perfect and why would I want anything other than what God has for me) however and I got through both parties without any weird freak outs or sob sessions. At the party we all wore the color pink or blue to display our guesses of whether it was a boy or a girl. So of coarse I wore pink. We ate cupcakes filled with pink filling and that's how we all were notified that it was a girl. I realized that the hardest part will probably be when I actually see these babies after they're born. I may have to come up with an even stronger mantra for that time.

Another hurdle could be October 23 when I'm invited to a party for a close family friend who is a BLM and became a BLM before me. Please keep her in your prayers she is expecting a baby girl in 2 weeks. There will be a "shower" for her on October 23 so I will actually, God willing, be seeing a LIVE brand new baby girl at the "shower." She doesn't want to call it a shower though as you may understand her unwillingness to have a shower as she is a BLM. October 23, 2009 is a horrible date for me even though it is my mother's birthday it is also the day we were told that Gracie had trisomy 18. If you can think of a mantra to get me through that day if I even go to the party that would be great.

So I feel like I have baby girls coming out of everywhere but me:
Baby Girls Expected:
Close family friend, Sept.
Cousin, Dec.
My Belly Buddy, Dec.
Sister-in-Law, Jan.

I'm sort of dreading fall and winter because its when we got the bad news and it's when Gracie was born. I'm still trying to smile because she lived and quit dwelling on the hurt but it's a process and maybe a lifetime process.